Two Years

Today would have been Paxten's 2nd birthday. We mourn that we don't get to see her throw herself into two. We praise because she gets to have a heavenly birthday party with more joy that we can fathom here.

March 10, 2010

March 10, 2011

We miss you daily Paxten. Your squeals, your silly noises, your push-ups, your love for babies, your elephant song, your backyardigans, your excitement to see your Row-Row, your pointing, your demands for your ipad and your skinny legs running around.

We miss YOU.

Say a prayer for Blake and Libby today. This first big milestone since she went to be with Jesus is a harsh reminder of their loss. It also starts the "what's". What would she look like at 2? What new words would she know? What would be her favorite food. What would she love playing with. The "whats" will follow them for the rest of their lives. Questions that will never get answered and I can't imagine that shadow.

"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the maker of all things." Ecclesiastes 11:5

I don't understand and that can be hard. I read in a book once that "if God were small enough to be understood He wouldn't be big enough to be worshiped." That resonates with me and reminds me that when I can't figure it out, I can still worship the fact that God promises me that it will all come together as a part of His big plan and that we will all be drawn together again one day.

Have a cupcake for Pax today and celebrate all that she gave us in her short time here.